“I am not ready to be an angel in the sky” those are the words from a new song written by a Kirkby mum who is currently battling cancer which has spread to four places in her body.
Cheryl Patrick was diagnosed with breast cancer in 2015 and this has now spread to her liver, lungs and lymph nodes behind her breastbone.
The 41-year-old mum of Roewood Close, Kirkby, said one of the reasons she wrote the untitled song which is about her journey with cancer, was for her 16-year-old son.
She said: “I wrote it so if something happens they will have something.”
Cheryl said her son Joshua, who started West Nottinghamshire College last week to study sports, will not let her play him the song as he said he finds it is “too upsetting”.
In the song she writes about her feelings toward the disease.
The lyrics include: “Cancer can take its fear for it is not welcome here.
“I can do this for my son I am not going to run until I’m done.”
The song, which is Cheryl’s first, took her just ten minutes to write in her back garden in June and has recently been recorded.
She said: “Me writing the song was quite out of the blue
“I was sat in the garden and started writing it. It only took ten minutes - I am quite proud of it.”
She said writing the song ended up being quite therapeutic.
In the chorus she talks about her determination to defeat the disease.
She wrote: “I am not ready to be an angel in the sky, I’m not ready for my wings to fly. Because my head is strong and my mind made up. I will come with you when my time is up. Here I’ll stay until this disease has gone away.”
The song has been recorded by a London singer Laura Jane, who is a friend of Cheryl’s sister Rebecca.
Cheryl said: “It was so good of her to do it.”
Cheryl, who said her family has been ‘very helpful’, has now stopped receiving chemotherapy for her cancer.
She wrote in the song that her doctors say “it is not looking good” but that she is going to “prove them wrong.”
She said: “It is horrible stuff - it was OK at first - but I don’t want it anymore. It makes me really weak and tired - its just horrible.”
She is now treating her cancer with cannabis oil.
Because of her tiredness Cheryl has had to close her business on Outram Street, Sutton, called Giftique, which sold craft products.
She said: “The shop was something I had wanted to do for ages I was upset about closing it but I can always do it again.”